freakin' spoilers!!!!

confession number one... i am a harry potter addict. confession number two... i joined a spoilers mailing list for HP5 (which i wasn't going to read, just have access to if the urge to take a hit of harry potter overcame logic and sound mind)... and i scrolled down to find out how to unsubscribe now that the book is out and i'm only 2 days away from being able to read it... and i found out who died. it fucking sucks. dammit. that'll teach me to seek out spoilers.

in other news... no word from the boy for 24 hours now. was hooking up with him a mistake? that wasn't the read i got on sunday when i woke up... all of my insecurities are coming out to play. at least it would kind of serve me right, all things considered. the most ironic statement on saturday night ... "are you cheating on me already?" said by the boy after the mexicans came by to flirt... ironic because... oh, yeah... he has a live-in girlfriend!!! at least i can laugh about it. he's still cool. we'll give him a little bit to get his head on straight and his ass back online. patience, grasshopper. i could use a spoiler for how this whole situation is going to turn out, but the magic 8 ball is being sarcastic, as usual. if anybody else has any pull with the spirit world, could ya leave me a comment about what they say about my love life?