at my most human...

i have decided that the solution to my "i have no social ability right now" problem is to isolate myself (to a certain extent) from the group. my mood has been vile, my temper has been short, and i'm not as tolerant about people's idiosyncracies as i usually am. SO, in order to save our friendships, i think that this is a good move. because, really, i've been snapped at no fewer than 10 times in the past four days. it can't be everybody else; it has to be me, at least to a certain extent.

in talking with my mom last night, she helped me to breathe a little bit. "you want to come home, and that's all you want to do right now. i know because that's what i'd be focused on, too. but you can't look at this month as the end of the school year; try to think about it as the beginning of the summer, and enjoy it!" so says mom, giver of wisdom and light. a little too much reading textbooks and putting up with stupid shit to look at it as the beginning of summer, BUT i'm trying. really, i am.

the message: so, if you're out there, and you think i'm avoiding you, you're probably right. but it's probably for the best. i'll be back to myself again soon. please don't hug me, please don't touch me because i'm very fragile right now. i just need some time.