weird, weird world...
god bless carol p. my grandmother's cousin (the aforementioned carol p) died sunday morning up in chicago. she was 97 and one of the more crotchety of the bunch; she also had beaucoup d'argent, which made her very popular with the chicago set of "relatives." i respected her more than liked her, and - after her final decision - i respect her even more now. when we got the news that she'd died (last night - two and a half days after the fact, now come the fuck on. if we were family, we would have found out on sunday when the family up in freakin canada did), i was worried because i really didn't know if i could handle another funeral/applegate family reunion extravaganza. the last one didn't go so well. no worries, man. she donated her body to science and she didn't want a memorial service - just wanted to go gently into that good night. at least she understands how this family works.
i keep trying to reach a point where i can forgive the family for everything they've done to us, and then they push something else onto the pile of shit that they've pulled over the last 10 years. this move of theirs to not even tell us about carol p - one of the few "relatives" still talking to us - is just crap. i wish they had even a scrap of guilt about it, but even the canadians are so freakin self-absorbed and oblivious to the fact that my father might be affected by this news. sigh
in other news (yeah, it's been a banner week so far with the news), my father has diabetes. yes, this is new. so, we move forward and we deal with it. it concerns me. that's all. i'm not willing to deal with the long-term fallout from what the disease might do, if he doesn't get everything under control.
dear lizzie,
are you still going to be friends with the boy? did you connect with the old boy? how did that go? love to you!
concerned, faith
good news
heidi and i are going to see edwin mccain at the house of blues in chicago tomorrow night. i'm ecstatic. if all the other shit was gone from my life, i'd literally be jumping up and down at the chance to see a concert at house of blues.