i have kind of a fish-out-of-water feeling right now. as long as i waited and waited for the chance to come to peoria and see the family, now i'm pretty much just waiting for life to get back to "normal" (or as normal as life in the delta gets). we have family in town, so my mom is in "public mom" mode, which includes picking at me, at every little thing i do or say wrong in front of her family. but she's cheerful, so that's good. and i actually enjoy having the extended family here, no matter how much i need to occasionally duck out for carey time. my relationship with my mom is weird. when we're apart and talking via the phone or when we're together for short periods of time, we're great. i don't know what happens when we're together for longer than a few days, but we start getting snippy. it's not even that we try to keep things on a surface level, because we don't. sigh. whatever. having rob and dad around works pretty well to give us buffers, but since they're both gone (school and work) right now, it's a little tense. tonight should be better. i wonder if i'm just PMSy. who knows? that's such a sexist thing to say. can't i just have emotions?

heather, just in case you didn't get the email - don't buy the new ani CD. i have it. you can copy it. if you're just some random stranger reading this blog, ani is ani difranco. she's awesome. a bit of sanity in an insane world. time to go get my dose. have a happy weekend!